Friday, February 8, 2008

I am an Invisible Being

I'm having a bad day, really I am. I mean, it's a weekend and I woke up at six o'clock in the morning to the sound of people talking! Seriously! Why can't people let me me sleep. It's just another one of those days where nothing at all happens your way and everything ends up pissing you off.

I went to an English class last night. Not that I needed it, of course, my mum just was way to worried about me and I thought I'd cheer her up by going there. When I went, I thought I'd put up my cool-depressed looking face, you know, the one which makes everyone leave you alone, even teachers. So much for that. It all started when I said my name out loud while I was introducing myself and the teacher didn't really understand it -not that my name's all that difficult- and then he spelled it wrong, the teacher, i mean. He spelled it like "Irin" which is apparently a British name and he went on and on about how he had a close friend who goes by the same name. I raised my hand and wrecked his wonderful flashback moment by saying that my name is spelled "Aryn". Which caused everyone to burst out laughing, and the teacher too. Me, on the other hand, I turned red as a beetroot. The rest went pretty mellow, until he asked me to read a paragraph, I did so quite willingly. And then he had to do it, the guy called me a miracle!!!! Seriously, I almost melted into my chair full of embarrassment. You know how in books they always say that they wished that the floor would open up and swallow them, well, I'm confirming that you can actually wish for stuff like that to happen. He kept going on about it, which was humiliating on so many levels.

I guess I'm just not one of those people who walks into a room and doesn't get noticed. When I walk into a room everyone's heads turn at me and half the people end up smiling. The worst part is I don't usually feel like smiling back! I would give anything to be invisible, not to be noticed and to be forgotten by people constantly. I think I would lead a happy, invisible life.

"La roue sur la rue roule; la rue sous la roue reste."

"The wheel rolls on the road; the road stays under the wheel"